Month: May 2010

  • I Don’t Like This Feeling

    I don’t like this feeling. I don’t like feeling. I feel strange. I can feel everything happening in my body. I feel weak. Nauseous. I can fell my heart beating in my chest. I can feel every breath I take. Especially the ones I don’t take. My chest feels heavy. It is hard to breath.…

  • Blood Test Back I Have a High SED Rate

    Of course when they called and told me my blood work was back and everything was okay except I had a high SED rate, I had no idea what that could mean and they did not explain it to me either. Thank goodness for WebMD.com (maybe), where I got an explanation even if it wasn’t…

  • My Food Allergies Growing

    Foods I can never have ever again. (Raw): cherry, nectarine, celery, carrots, banana, apple, tomato, potato, orange, grapefruit, pineapple (Cooked): soybean (any Soy), apple, clam, oyster, lobster, shrimp, mixed fish, crab, peanuts, almonds (All nuts), mustard, carrot, potato. Items in bold are new. Might even be more, these are just the touch them again and…

  • I Don’t Want to Feel This Way

    I hate this feeling. Hopeless. Helpless. I don’t want to feel this. Some think I like feeling like this. That I like the attention. Not true. There is no attention to be had. This is a very lonely process. I don’t share my feelings until it is nearly too late. I have learned a long…