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Oct 292012
 

Life what do I do
When I can’t handle it?
I go to a graveyard
To be alone and sit

Thinking yet not thinking
Of death and about life
Is it worth going through
All this hardship and strife

The day is soon coming
When I will be here too
Will I be like the rest
Lying forgotten too

I pass a few tombstones
And bend to read the name
Not knowing who he is
Or from where he came

And I wonder to myself
How did he come to this place
To be forgotten in time
Only a name without a face

I pass a new grave
And I feel a bit sad
I ask where are the flowers
And it makes me feel bad

That no one sent flowers
Now a stranger or comes by
To see the blank grave and
With a prayer begins to cry

How lonely the grave must
Be yet how peaceful too
Peace in death where in life
It only did elude

This past Time of mine was
A lonely one for me
Then by chance I found you
To share this side of me

It’s nice to find someone
To share your special times
It gives them more meaning
When they’re more than just mine

Oct 162012
 

Graveyards at night.
A place of solitude.
A place of fright.

Hidden behind a headstone
Hidden from the world
Just me, here alone.

Alone with the people
Lying here at rest.
Looking at the church steeple

I see the moon
Looking back at me.
A full moon

To light my path.
As I walk through graves
Counting years doing the math.

I wonder if my fear is real.
And why am I afraid?
I’m not here to vandalize or steal.

Yet I’m not afraid of cops.
My fear is for what is here.
What is here? I stop.

To listen. Listen For what?
I’m not sure.
Maybe Death.

Oct 142012
 

Life’s last sustaining breath
Was taken the day you left
Love’s discerning grasp could not hold you
But for that fleeting moment
At that very moment
My life let go
To live alone is to die
You left me there dying
Unable to pick up the pieces of my heart
Scattered all around me
Lying there unbound within my soul
Both love
And life
Now lost
With life now lost
My soul cries out for unity

Oct 122012
 

How do you get someone to love you?
I want to hold your hand.
I want to feel your lips against mine.
I want to feel your body next to mine.
I love to be near you.
I don’t want you to leave.
When you do I feel so empty.
I eagerly await the good-bye kiss that never comes.
I love being your friend.
But I want more.
I wish you felt the same way.
I fear you don’t and never will.
I want you as a lover.
I know that I can’t.
I want more than a friendship.
I want. I want! I want?
What do I want?
Does what I want even matter?
What about you?
You want a friend and that’s all.
None of this lover’s shit for you.

Oct 112012
 

You’re such a bitch.
You’re such a bitch.
You’re a terrible, ugly,
Horrible witch.

Get out of my face.
Stay out of my life.
I don’t want you
To be my wife.

I don’t want to be
Seen with you any more.
So leave me alone,
Hurt, pacing the floor.

You’re still a bitch.
You’re still a bitch.
You’re still a terrible,
Ugly witch.

Count your blessings.
So you’re all alone.
You’re still alive
With your heart of stone.

Don’t come near me.
You give me the creeps.
They’re running from you
In bounds and leaps.

Stay away from me.
Get out of my hair.
Whatever you feel
I just don’t care.

Cause you’re a bitch.
A dog-gone bitch.
You’re a terrible,
Horrible, ugly witch.

Oct 052012
 

You don’t care what you say
Or that you’re hurting me
You just say what you think
That you don’t like What you see

And all I’m trying to say
Is let me be myself
Don’t hide me away or
Make me sit on a shelf

You say I’m odd or strange
That I’m the only one
On God’s green earth
Or under the sun

You really should say county
‘Cause that’ s all you’re looking at
You are always telling me
No one else dresses like that

Hell we live with the Amish
They are unusual too
But you don’t mind them
It is just what I do

We go out together
Which we hardly do
I have to walk far behind
And stay away from you

Something tells me that
If you cared at all
You wouldn’t mind how
I look or what you saw

You’ d love me with
My wild spiked purple hair
And no matter what I
Wore you wouldn’t care

IF only I could call
You Mom in public
Without embarrassing you
Or making you sick

So I stay in the house
And I hardly go out
It is all your fault
I want to scream and shoot

From your point of View
I haven’ t got a friend
So what’s the point of living
It might as well all end

Oct 012012
 

Someone is screaming in pain
Someone is crying for help

Someone’s cry is in vain
Someone’s pain is unseen

It’s a silent kind of cry
And a tear you cannot see

Someone has that look in their eye
Someone has pain in their heart

It is a pain that won’t leave
A pain that just won’t quit

A feeling you can’t deceive
A feeling of helplessness

Someone has a question
Someone is confused

And i n the midst of that confusion
The cry for help is ended

The depression is no longer
The pain will hurt no more

Someone’s mind is no stronger
Someone’s life cannot be mended

Someone’s life has just ended

Sep 152011
 

SheSpeaksbuttonNo, I am not wasting food!

In fact it is not even that kind of food fight. I am talking about the Aetna Healthy Food Fight. This is a cooking contest with a eye on healthy foods.

Shespeaks.com has teamed up with Aetna to help promote their contest. They have already hosted a Twitter party with another one tonight (not sure I will be able to make it, shame though, they have some great prizes if you can keep up with the quizzes).

So if you have a few healthy recipes  in your recipe box (do people even use those any more?), head on over to Aetna Healthy Food Fight site and enter or simply stop by and vote for your favorite recipes.

Jul 022011
 

Get A Kit,    Make A Plan, Be Prepared. emergency.cdc.gov

I love that the CDC invokes popular culture to get the word out about being prepared for ANY potential problem even a Zombie Apocalypse. This is especially prevalent when you think back on all the recent tornado damage and upcoming hurricane seasons. It is not just the zombies….Nature is out to get us.

But don’t forget the pets! ASPCA Disaster Preparedness

The following comes from the CDC blog post Preparedness 101: Zombie Apocalypse

A Brief History of Zombies
We’ve all seen at least one movie about flesh-eating zombies taking over (my personal favorite is Resident EvilExternal Web Site Icon.), but where do zombies come from and why do they love eating brains so much? The word zombie comes from Haitian and New Orleans voodoo origins. Although its meaning has changed slightly over the years, it refers to a human corpse mysteriously reanimated to serve the undead. Through ancient voodoo and folk-lore traditions, shows like the Walking Dead were born.

In movies, shows, and literature, zombies are often depicted as being created by an infectious virus, which is passed on via bites and contact with bodily fluids. Harvard psychiatrist Steven Schlozman wrote a (fictional) medical paper on the zombies presented in Night of the Living DeadExternal Web Site Icon. and refers to the condition as Ataxic Neurodegenerative Satiety Deficiency Syndrome caused by an infectious agent. The Zombie Survival GuideExternal Web Site Icon. identifies the cause of zombies as a virus called solanum. Other zombie origins shown in films include radiation from a destroyed NASAExternal Web Site Icon. VenusExternal Web Site Icon. probe (as in Night of the Living DeadExternal Web Site Icon.), as well as mutations of existing conditions such as prionsExternal Web Site Icon., mad-cow diseaseExternal Web Site Icon., measlesExternal Web Site Icon. and rabiesExternal Web Site Icon..

The rise of zombies in pop culture has given credence to the idea that a zombie apocalypse could happen. In such a scenario zombies would take over entire countries, roaming city streets eating anything living that got in their way. The proliferation of this idea has led many people to wonder “How do I prepare for a zombie apocalypse?”

Well, we’re here to answer that question for you, and hopefully share a few tips about preparing for real emergencies too!

Disaster or Blackout Emergency Supplies

Better Safe than Sorry

So what do you need to do before zombies…or hurricanes or pandemics for example, actually happen? First of all, you should have an emergency kit in your house. This includes things like water, food, and other supplies to get you through the first couple of days before you can locate a zombie-free refugee camp (or in the event of a natural disaster, it will buy you some time until you are able to make your way to an evacuation shelter or utility lines are restored). Below are a few items you should include in your kit, for a full list visit the CDC Emergency page.

  • Water (1 gallon per person per day)
  • Food (stock up on non-perishable items that you eat regularly)
  • Medications (this includes prescription and non-prescription meds)
  • Tools and Supplies (utility knife, duct tape, battery powered radio, etc.)
  • Sanitation and Hygiene (household bleach, soap, towels, etc.)
  • Clothing and Bedding (a change of clothes for each family member and blankets)
  • Important documents (copies of your driver’s license, passport, and birth certificate to name a few)
  • First Aid supplies (although you’re a goner if a zombie bites you, you can use these supplies to treat basic cuts and lacerations that you might get during a tornado or hurricane)

Once you’ve made your emergency kit, you should sit down with your family and come up with an emergency plan. This includes where you would go and who you would call if zombies started appearing outside your door step. You can also implement this plan if there is a flood, earthquake, or other emergency.

Picture of Family by mailboxFamily members meeting by their mailbox. You should pick two meeting places, one close to your home and farther away

  1. Identify the types of emergencies that are possible in your area. Besides a zombie apocalypse, this may include floods, tornadoes, or earthquakes. If you are unsure contact your local Red Cross chapter for more information.
  2. Pick a meeting place for your family to regroup in case zombies invade your home…or your town evacuates because of a hurricane. Pick one place right outside your home for sudden emergencies and one place outside of your neighborhood in case you are unable to return home right away.
  3. Identify your emergency contacts. Make a list of local contacts like the police, fire department, and your local zombie response team. Also identify an out-of-state contact that you can call during an emergency to let the rest of your family know you are ok.
  4. Plan your evacuation route. When zombies are hungry they won’t stop until they get food (i.e., brains), which means you need to get out of town fast! Plan where you would go and multiple routes you would take ahead of time so that the flesh eaters don’t have a chance! This is also helpful when natural disasters strike and you have to take shelter fast.

Never Fear – CDC is Ready

Get a Kit, Make a Plan, Be PreparedGet a Kit, Make a Plan, Be Prepared

If zombies did start roaming the streets, CDC would conduct an investigation much like any other disease outbreak. CDC would provide technical assistance to cities, states, or international partners dealing with a zombie infestation. This assistance might include consultation, lab testing and analysis, patient management and care, tracking of contacts, and infection control (including isolation and quarantine). It’s likely that an investigation of this scenario would seek to accomplish several goals: determine the cause of the illness, the source of the infection/virus/toxin, learn how it is transmitted and how readily it is spread, how to break the cycle of transmission and thus prevent further cases, and how patients can best be treated. Not only would scientists be working to identify the cause and cure of the zombie outbreak, but CDC and other federal agencies would send medical teams and first responders to help those in affected areas (I will be volunteering the young nameless disease detectives for the field work).

To learn more about what CDC does to prepare for and respond to emergencies of all kinds, visit:
http://emergency.cdc.gov/cdc/orgs_progs.asp

To learn more about how you can prepare for and stay safe during an emergency visit:
http://emergency.cdc.gov/

May 282010
 

I don’t like this feeling.

I don’t like feeling.

I feel strange. I can feel everything happening in my body.

I feel weak. Nauseous.

I can fell my heart beating in my chest.

I can feel every breath I take. Especially the ones I don’t take. My chest feels heavy. It is hard to breath. I feel out of breath when all I am doing is lying here.

I can feel my throat. I can feel the breath as it moves down my throat. How can air get caught in your throat? My tongue feels like it is pushing on the back of my throat. Pushing it closed.

I feel my head, the weight of my head. Yet I am light headed?

I feel my arms and legs. Feel them feel as if they are useless or not even there. Tingly but not tingly. Weak.

Remember to breath.

My stomach is empty yet I feel it working. Digesting. Gurgling. Pushing nothingness into my bowels, bowels that bubble and twist.

Headache.

I can feel my eyes moving about in their sockets. I feel every blink.

I feel like a stranger in my own body.

I want to go back to not feeling any of this as it happens, to blissfully feel nothing as my body works.

I don’t like this feeling.

I don’t like feeling.

May 272010
 

Of course when they called and told me my blood work was back and everything was okay except I had a high SED rate, I had no idea what that could mean and they did not explain it to me either. Thank goodness for WebMD.com (maybe), where I got an explanation even if it wasn’t exactly promising.

From WebMD.com…

Sedimentation Rate

The sedimentation rate (sed rate) blood test measures how quickly red blood cells (erythrocytes) settle in a test tube in one hour. The more red cells that fall to the bottom of the test tube in one hour, the higher the sed rate.

When inflammation is present in the body, certain proteins cause red blood cells to stick together and fall more quickly than normal to the bottom of the tube. These proteins are produced by the liver and the immune system under many abnormal conditions, such as an infection, an autoimmune disease, or cancer.

There are many possible causes of a high sedimentation rate. For this reason, a sed rate is done with other tests to confirm a diagnosis. After a diagnosis has been made, a sed rate can be done to help check on the disease or see how well treatment is working.
Why It Is Done

A sedimentation rate (sed rate) test is done to:

* Find out if inflammation is present.
* Check on the progress of a disease.
* See how well a treatment is working.

High sedimentation rates may be caused by:

And their definition of autoimmune wasn’t very promising either….

Autoimmune disease

The immune system is the body’s defense against foreign substances, such as bacteria or viruses, that may be harmful. An autoimmune disease is an abnormal condition that occurs when a person’s immune system attacks its own tissues as though they were foreign substances.

* Normally, when a foreign substance enters the body, the immune system creates special cells to attack and destroy the foreign substance. These cells include antibodies and white blood cells (lymphocytes).
* In a person with an autoimmune disease, the immune system recognizes some of the person’s own tissues as foreign substances. The body makes antibodies and other cells that attack and destroy these tissues. This process often leads to inflammation and eventually, if it continues, scarring and destruction of the organs that are made up of those tissues.

Why the body attacks its own cells is not known. Autoimmune diseases include lupus, rheumatoid arthritis, scleroderma, and Sjogren’s syndrome. Certain types of diabetes and thyroid disease are related to autoimmune reactions. People who have autoimmune diseases are at an increased risk for infections.